I appreciate and respect Brian Puspos as a dancer because shit man… talent like that does not come without sacrifice, hard work, and dedication. And the mastery of his own style is an indication of the phenomenal dancer that he is.
WITH THAT SAID. I still don’t like his style :/. LOL. I would love to see more of my peers watch other dancers, even if they aren’t dancers themselves, because there are just so many more dancers out there that deserve recognition. Not saying Mr. Puspos doesn’t… just don’t feel as if his choreography heralds the same merit as certain others.
You can take it as me going against the grain or being a Puspos-hater (I’m not, btw), but no take backs. I saiiidd what I saiiidd.
I’m grateful for my job. I’m grateful that its a position that helps me hone my writing abilities and at the time, teaches me about my newfound passion: marketing. Overall, I’m just grateful to have a steady flow of income.
But… I don’t like the tasks/work that I’m doing. i don’t like that this company is not in the industry I want to be in. And I just don’t like feeling as if I’m wasting away here.
Okay, the last bit was a bit dramatic because I know I’m learning and shit. But.. ugh, I just don’t give a rat’s ass about this company. Is that really bad to say? :/
I’m just wondering if God is pledging me. I’m wondering if He is putting me in this position to teach me discipline, hard work, and perseverance. I thought I knew what all that was, but after accepting Christ a year ago, it seems as if all prior notions I had about myself and life are invalid now.
I don’t fucking know.
It’s hard to convince myself everyday that this is where I’m actually supposed to be to get to where I want.
It’s only been a few months, let’s just keep going.
BUT GODDAMN, SO MUCH HARDER TO GET YOURSELF WORKING DILIGENTLY AND PASSIONATELY IF YOU’RE NOT EVEN PASSIONATE ABOUT WHAT YOU’RE DOIND.
I literally have to dig SO DEEP to get myself working productively.
I fell for you like rain.